please back..please..

i forget the date but it's before december.It is the most beautiful night i ever feel when i meet him at the first time.And it will be unlasting memories while i was falling in love.

Watching  the movies of Avatar (the different version) at Pejaten VillageJakarta

Actually that is the first time i watched movie at night with the boy and he is the Mr. Rider  i can named.

He just my friends at that time,my senior brother ex high school actually and now being let we say co-engaged haha =)

we got flirting ..sharing each other together at the corridor before we got into the theatre room.

Pertama kalinya bercanda,tertawa,perhatian dia cuma buat gue.

Seperti mewujudkan kepasrahan karena gue merasa mulai jatuh cinta saat itu karena dia perhatian  banget,gue teringat sama lagu soundtrack film ini yang menggambarkan  perasaan gue saat itu.Saat dunia gue serasa mau runtuh karena banyak hal dan banyak masalah,gue tiba-tiba deket sama dia.

Intinya,gue kangen banget saat pertama kali itu.Kalau gue boleh bicara,gue benci dengan keadaan saat ini walaupun terkesan tidak ada apa-apa padahal banyak hal yang berubah.Terlalu banyak..dan buruk buat gue.

but i think i just love him no matter the ways are and even he always never understand this and the situation now.And even i must to always be .always being the miss understand,miss patient,miss underpressure.

I miss that moment ..and i'm really miss him ..as i ever feel at the past,  one year ago .

please back ..please..

honestly,my heart was always crying over you since that time was gone ..gone as you belong to want..gone and you are not understand..and now let me say that i am a survivor,someone that gonna be always love you in no matter the way you give to me.am i wrong?am i too curious to wish you to back as the person that i kno...w ? tell me if i'm wrong so i can easily go and move on.please..